Sunday, March 28, 2010 1 little week...

It's been so long since I've posted....and I should be in bed, but my mind is going 100  places right now, so I will try to write. ( I hear it's therapy, but I always pitied my teachers at school when they had to read my writing...)

This week I heard the Dr say something to me I never figured I would hear. It's still kinda a dream. He said,(in a deep monotone voice) "It's never easy to say this, but your tumor is cancer." What???? I feel fine, I say. I don't have much pain, just a little every now and then. Sure I have blood in my stool, but thats just from a bleeding ulcer....I mean I have a lot going on in my life, and it's probably just stress. That was gonna be his line....but I heard, what in the back of my mind I feared I had all along....cancer. Colon cancer.
The rest of the day is a blear. You get pricked for see if the cancer has spread....while your still trying to think that through, you meet with the surgeon who tells you what he's gonna cut out and put back together again....he's kinda like a plumber he says...only that it's your organs he's talking about plumbing. Nice.

We get out of that one and go back to the hospital for a cat scan. The radiologist says that the dye they are going to shoot in me will make me feel all hot, then cold ,then like I wet myself. He's right. It all happens in that order.

I keep thinking how are we going to tell the girls...most cancer patients they know, have died, even though we've prayed and prayed for their healing. But in the end we don't tell them the "c" word. We just tell them Mommy has to have surgery to remove the bad thing in her tummy. But they know something is up. We all cry alot these days.

But this week wouldn't be complete without writing about all the good things that have happened. We have been carried on the arms of love....yes carried. So many people have prayed, and have shown that they care. When you read in the Bible about the "peace that passeth all understanding" that has been the state I have been in. I know what it's like to have JOY in the midst of this. That... only can come from GOD. The sense that GOD is WITH US, has been so REAL to me. And there has been much to rejoice about this week. My tests all came back that my cancer hasn't spread. Thank you JESUS!!!

More than ever, I know that my life is not my own. It is not my story to write. I'm part of a much bigger picture. It's not about never has been. It's about the one who died for me, whose love is much bigger and deeper than anything I can ever imagine. A love I want to know more of....Jesus.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Close to My Heart Specials......

I love this special that Close to My Heart only does about once a year...and this year it's just in time for the holidays! You can buy directly from my website at

This is the Jingle workshop that I will be doing in's the first one that I have bought the kit for and I really enjoyed doing it. In the kit you get an exclusive stamp set, twinkle brads, level 2 paper kit and workshop flyer. You learn how to do second and third generation stamping, masking and sponging.
Fun stuff...if there would only be more hours in my day!:)

Friday, October 30, 2009


Fear of the future, fear of sickness, of the swine flu, fear of where the government is going, fear of world events, fear of the UNKNOWN.

FEAR has robbed me of joy. It has sapped me of my strength. I keep fighting it, worrying....letting my thoughts run wild. STOP! It is enough. I am done.

God is my Father...I am his child, since when is that not enough? Has worrying ever helped me? Has it made things better?

And why do I worry, when I am so blessed. I have an incredible husband, 3 beautiful daughters who are healthy and have more energy than a herd of elephants on most days. I love the life God has given me. Love living in the city! Yet I'm allowing fear to rob me of my joy for life.

Forgive me Father for not trusting in you....TODAY I will embrace life! I will enjoy the moment. I will love this gift God has given me in TODAY!

Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to an all-knowing God.
Corrie ten Boom

Don't worry about anything;instead pray about everything.Tell God what you need, and thank him for all He has done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:5-7

Monday, October 19, 2009

Do these GIRLS have a MOTHER? And WHERE is SHE?

So its been raining and raining and raining some more...and finally the girls "dressed up warm", they said and played in the rain. They had a grand time....and their fashion....well, at least their fingers stayed warm!:)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

September 2009

The first day at Classical Conversations.....the girls are loving it! It's only 1 day a week, but it's a fun day for all of us. Even though its a lot of work!:)
The girls had a great time making crafts at camp...

Church camping....phil had a great time playing with the church band!:)

Beth and her gang came for Labor Day and helped make salsa--who said making salsa is boring and takes long? Not with like 10 people making it!

Picnic at Reagon National Airport Labor Day weekend~ had a great time with friends and family, playing games and watching the planes!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Celebrating the Everyday!

I just love this new card kit that Close To My Heart is offering from now through the end of September, celebrating the joys of everyday life. That's what life is all about, isn't it?
I love the colors, and the stamp set is so cute. You can check it out at my site at

It's been a while!

So much has happened since I've posted last, I about don't know where to start! This past month seems like its been extra busy, but then again its summer time and all the fun that goes with it. We went camping in July, the girls LUVED it! Fun times with family.... I staid in OH while Phil went onto Colorado on business. My little city girls:) had so much fun in Grandma's garden...picking vegetables and apples from the trees. We made applesauce too while we were there. Good times!

Mom and Dad with all the granddaughters...

Sandra and Sara with their favorite Aunt!!!

Our family

Come on fire...we want to make smores!

Mom's beautiful garden...
Sandra and Sara had so much fun in the garden and picking apples!

Making applesauce!